5.4.11

Today I felt a little down due to some words exchanged with a friend I've known for a long time.  Although I was never too close to her (because I always keep my distance unless I truly trust someone), we parted ways as friends.  I always tried to keep in contact with her, yet she showed me the jealousy and envy she had towards me.  It didn't sit well with me.  It's really sad.  Why can't others be happy for you when you are happy?  Why must they project their emotions onto me?  There are more important things to worry about, and the ones who know me, know me.  The ones who don't, well that's it, that's just "them."  Aside from that little drama (I hate drama and have never had drama for a like years), life is good.  I'm excited about so many things in my life.  Thank you God again.  Brushing all negative thoughts away and wishing people happiness and lots of smiles =)

4.25.11

Thank you God for everything you have given, done, and sacrificed for me.  I am blessed.

4.19.11

Finally things are clearing up for me in my head. 

4.19.11

Quotes I find true and maybe even relate to or apply to me currently:

"  “It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.”

"Don’t ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive, and go do it. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive.”

"“If you wait to do everything until you're sure it's right, you'll probably never do much of anything.”

"This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your heart, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when you doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life.”"

"Take up one idea. Make that one idea your life - think of it, dream of it, live on that idea. Let the brain, muscles, nerves, every part of your body, be full of that idea, and just leave every other idea alone. This is the way to success, that is way great spiritual giants are produced.”

"“When I hear somebody sigh, "Life is hard," I am always tempted to ask, "Compared to what?"”

3.23.11

So lately I've been thinking...The purses I bought, the cars, the clothes, the watches, the shoes... I could've used it for something huge that I want now.  I noticed in 1 year I racked up 152,000 points on my AMEX...granted groceries give me 3x the points...but I always pay cash and well..everything else gives me 1 point.  So basically in the past year and few months....i've spent $152,000 on STUFF.  Crap that i cant even remember.  Then I realize...the purses...each costs more than a semester worth of school at George Mason.  I have over 20....Then the shoes...who needs $1,000 pair of shoes...who cares if the bottoms are red.  Rolexes...do I care if they dont need batteries?  My car...okay..granted I have beater cars...but y do I care if the emblem on my car has a peace sign?  And the top is hard top and drops on its own....my clothes....y do i refuse to wear jeans that dont have the letter "R" or jeans that are Paige or Joe's...Everything is all material.  When did i grow into this materialistic monster.  and Y do i care so much?  If these material goods are a symbol of status to me, then screw the status.  I'd rather be considered 'poor.'  I realize now...I need to focus!  Find something I'm really interested in doing...and start my business...AFTER school.  300K...should be really quick to save.  I'd be happy at 150.  Just Do it...screw all material goods for the next year.  Maybe then i'll start to realize...they aren't even important.

3.9.12

I've been reading articles lately about food categories and what they do for you.  I've finally taken the time to understand my body and its needs.  I've also begun to understand why I was such a sugar monster and was in constant need for sweets.  I could sit down and have a whole box of cookies without stopping.  I started eating more protein, portioning my carb and sweet intake, and eating fruits earlier in the day.  Just in the last 4 days my body naturally shed about 5 pounds.  It's ridiculous.  I'm really happy, and I feel great!  I'm leaving to Orlando this Sunday and I CANNOT WAIT!  Tan, shop, tan and shop!  Life is good especially because I'm not stressing the things I used to stress about =)

3.2.11

I guess the longer you are in a relationship, the more you realize what you need.  I need a supportive significant other.  Someone who encourages me...and helps me become a better person.  Someone once told me to embrace what I'm going through.  What do I want to do with myself...What do you want to do Judy.  What do you want?  What makes you happy?  What are you passionate about?  What can you see yourself doing?  Where do you want to be in 10 years?....35 and what?