3.23.11

So lately I've been thinking...The purses I bought, the cars, the clothes, the watches, the shoes... I could've used it for something huge that I want now.  I noticed in 1 year I racked up 152,000 points on my AMEX...granted groceries give me 3x the points...but I always pay cash and well..everything else gives me 1 point.  So basically in the past year and few months....i've spent $152,000 on STUFF.  Crap that i cant even remember.  Then I realize...the purses...each costs more than a semester worth of school at George Mason.  I have over 20....Then the shoes...who needs $1,000 pair of shoes...who cares if the bottoms are red.  Rolexes...do I care if they dont need batteries?  My car...okay..granted I have beater cars...but y do I care if the emblem on my car has a peace sign?  And the top is hard top and drops on its own....my clothes....y do i refuse to wear jeans that dont have the letter "R" or jeans that are Paige or Joe's...Everything is all material.  When did i grow into this materialistic monster.  and Y do i care so much?  If these material goods are a symbol of status to me, then screw the status.  I'd rather be considered 'poor.'  I realize now...I need to focus!  Find something I'm really interested in doing...and start my business...AFTER school.  300K...should be really quick to save.  I'd be happy at 150.  Just Do it...screw all material goods for the next year.  Maybe then i'll start to realize...they aren't even important.