3.23.11

So lately I've been thinking...The purses I bought, the cars, the clothes, the watches, the shoes... I could've used it for something huge that I want now.  I noticed in 1 year I racked up 152,000 points on my AMEX...granted groceries give me 3x the points...but I always pay cash and well..everything else gives me 1 point.  So basically in the past year and few months....i've spent $152,000 on STUFF.  Crap that i cant even remember.  Then I realize...the purses...each costs more than a semester worth of school at George Mason.  I have over 20....Then the shoes...who needs $1,000 pair of shoes...who cares if the bottoms are red.  Rolexes...do I care if they dont need batteries?  My car...okay..granted I have beater cars...but y do I care if the emblem on my car has a peace sign?  And the top is hard top and drops on its own....my clothes....y do i refuse to wear jeans that dont have the letter "R" or jeans that are Paige or Joe's...Everything is all material.  When did i grow into this materialistic monster.  and Y do i care so much?  If these material goods are a symbol of status to me, then screw the status.  I'd rather be considered 'poor.'  I realize now...I need to focus!  Find something I'm really interested in doing...and start my business...AFTER school.  300K...should be really quick to save.  I'd be happy at 150.  Just Do it...screw all material goods for the next year.  Maybe then i'll start to realize...they aren't even important.

3.9.12

I've been reading articles lately about food categories and what they do for you.  I've finally taken the time to understand my body and its needs.  I've also begun to understand why I was such a sugar monster and was in constant need for sweets.  I could sit down and have a whole box of cookies without stopping.  I started eating more protein, portioning my carb and sweet intake, and eating fruits earlier in the day.  Just in the last 4 days my body naturally shed about 5 pounds.  It's ridiculous.  I'm really happy, and I feel great!  I'm leaving to Orlando this Sunday and I CANNOT WAIT!  Tan, shop, tan and shop!  Life is good especially because I'm not stressing the things I used to stress about =)

3.2.11

I guess the longer you are in a relationship, the more you realize what you need.  I need a supportive significant other.  Someone who encourages me...and helps me become a better person.  Someone once told me to embrace what I'm going through.  What do I want to do with myself...What do you want to do Judy.  What do you want?  What makes you happy?  What are you passionate about?  What can you see yourself doing?  Where do you want to be in 10 years?....35 and what?

3.1.11

"We cannot change our memories, but we can change their meaning and the power they have over us”